January 2012
23 posts
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Just because it's a New Year,
doesn’t mean its a “new you”. When that clock strikes midnight, we are not going to all of sudden change into a new person and we are not going to automatically have new friends. Change takes time. And we have to actually put effort into our new years resolution and not abandon them like we did every other year. I’m going to work extra hard to make this year different and...
December 2011
36 posts
Just because I don't talk about it,
doesn’t mean the feeling would go away. I’d still feel crappy.
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fuck those times you said you were gonna be there for me. fuck those times you made me cry. fuck those times you lied. fuck those times I believed you. fuck those late night calls. fuck those cute text messages. fuck those times other people judged.
didn’t mean shit.
I'm over you,
but I still miss you. I still miss having a friend you know. It’s too bad that feelings had to get in the way. It sucks that things will never be the same anymore. Nothing ever stays the same anyways. I can’t just go to you and act the way I did before because it’s awkward and different now…
Anonymous asked: your hair is nice
All I want is a guy friend..
To be honest, all I want is a guy I can adventure with. Someone I can hang out and have fun with. No feelings. I don’t want the childish relationship where it’s like “No babe YOU hang up first.” “No. You.” And I sure don’t want the serious commitment marriage relationship stuff. So I guess you can say I just want a best guy friend. Don’t get me...
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I feel like I am forcing the Christmas spirt. Listening to Christmas songs and doing “christmas” activities isn’t helping. Christmas is just not the same anymore. When will it begin to feel like Christmas?
Outside looking in.
It’s time for me to start picking up the pieces and putting them together again. I just lost my ways. I went a different direction, I took a wrong turn or whatever. The sad part was that half of the time I knew I was taking the wrong turn but I just didn’t care. I stopped caring. Even if I had a story to defend myself, I kept it to myself because why bother I’ll always be the...
Anonymous asked: don't answer this. ive been reading what you been posting lately and it kills me to see someone as beautiful as you be so sad and unhappy. i read what you posted a while back you saying you just want to be happy again, that you don't want to wake up sad anymore i understand that it hurts and life just doesn't feel the same anymore. but look you cant go blaming yourself for that...
Going to Disneyland alone.
Well, I don’t really have anyone to go with and I am not down for third wheel. So I guess I’ll have to go alone. I mean I am not missing out on Disneyland’s Christmas decoration. Forever alone.
I got it all wrong.
You actually did like me. It was me who messed it all up. It was mmy fault and all this time I blamed you…
Me: That guy is cute!
People that know him: He's a big player.
Me: Damn. Nevermind.
I always wanted to turn my back on my parents.
They’re just a little too much sometimes. But to be honest, they really are the only ones who have my back and are the only ones who really care. I can’t believe I was such an ungrateful child trying to push them away. I used to think they were the reasons why my life “sucked”. But they were just looking out for me. Parents would really do anything for us. Even if we know...
I hate when you cry so much that your eyes becomes...
Your friends,
have the most influence on you. Because the people you hang out with are the reasons why you act the way you do. It’s like if you put a rose with a bunch of smelly fish, eventually the rose will smell like a fish as well.
It sucks how people don't care.
You can vent and share your hate and all your problems to anyone but they won’t care. They will just nod their heads and agree it sucks but they won’t care. Even though they claim to be there for you when the time comes, they’re busy. When you vent your heart out, no one replies or they change the subject. Truth is people don’t like negative people and it sucks because...
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I kinda wish I had a chance with you.
I mean I probably did but then again I probably blew it a long time ago. I admit that I think back to that moment a lot and imagine what it would be like if I wasn’t so stubborn. It sucks because I feel like it’s too late now. I really want another chance with you. Well, to be friends at least. I don’t know I just don’t want to ignore you during passing. I want to smile at...
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Holiday Hates.
I hate when you get presents for someone and they don’t get you anything. It’s the thought that counts but dude I thought of you cause I’m a nice person. Why didn’t you think of me?
Before I take my final,
I will give all my teachers cookies and a thoughtful gift in hopes of getting a higher grade. LOL jk I WISH. MUST START STUDYING for shit I never actually learned.
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For December,
I would like to :
go to Disneyland for the Christmas decoration
go ice skating
watch christmas movies
hot chocolate
Christmas shopping
take pictures with those giant Christmas trees
drive around and look at christmas lights
bascially all the christmas stuff. Can someone make this happen or can someone do this with me? I’m really down for the holiday spirt.
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Running out of time..
We’re young, we change our minds as fast as our emotion does. We get tried of the same routine and we tend to hate a lot of things. And nothing is ever official with us. But that’s part of being young. We make mistakes, we explore, and experience new things. We search for the “right path” but we can’t get on the right path without walking through wrong ones. We...
I miss having a texting buddy.
All day and all night.